I just took an Ambien, so hopefully I will sleep tonight. It was a really tough day and I just want a nice sleep. I have never taken one of these before, but I hear they are pretty good.
I went to the mall tonight to buy a pair of jeans that fit and that aren't falling down. It felt odd to be amongst everyday people doing normal things as if nothing has happened. I don't know how to explain it, but it makes me a little angry to see people living their normal lives. Or, maybe it makes me a little envious.
I do notice that I can get annoying salespeople to NOT talk to me by just looking at them in the eyes. I imagine they can see the dark circles under my eyes and know not to mess with me. It's actually quite powerful.
Oh, and if I had to guess what stage I am in, it's definitely the anger stage.
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I hope you get some sleep tonight. As an alternative to buying new jeans, you could also make sure to keep eating. I wish I could fit in your old jeans; that way you could just send them to me instead of me having to go shopping for a new wardrobe. I was going to go to the Goodwill last weekend but I was pretty sure that you wouldn't approve. One clarification about the shopping advice: would you also recommend those same stores for casual wear, or were you focused on "executive" attire? I can picture the look you're giving the salespeople. I wish I were there, because I would just stare back and you and force you to hug me. Hang in there JM.
I doesn't seem possible that everything has continued along in teh world as you are suffering such a loss. I often feel like I have no one to talk to here since no one here knew my Dad and their lives just kept moving while I was out of regular time.
completely can relate to being angry and envious about people going about their normal everyday business, laughing, etc...it seems implausible anyone could laugh when there is tragedy like this happening. but you'll laugh again. dont' rush yourself
I have tried Ambien. I highly recommend it. You can buy through online WWW.MEDSHEAVEN.COM even without prescription. MF
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